I was reading an article on blogging today when I realized that I hadn't written in a really long time. I've been avoiding writing in this space for a few weeks now and being incredibly busy proved to be a good excuse. However, that is not the real reason why I haven't written.
The prospect of sharing intimate things with an unknown audience gives the same kind of comfort that one gets from talking to a therapist. Or so I thought earlier. I started writing to have a space where I could say what I wanted to, but soon I started wondering about being judged on the content and the writing and since have had some amount of performance anxiety which has kept me away from here.
Blogging is like walking the tight rope- there's a perfect balance one needs to keep to appreciate it and be appreciated on it. I feel vulnerable, exposed and afraid of expressing myself, which is really why I started blogging in the first place. The first few times I wrote, it was an adrenalin rush. As I started writing more, it started becoming scary and I felt this fear of not being good enough for the blogger world. I'm now inhibited and tend to think too much before typing away. I wish someone would tell me why that 'x' is the reason why I should blog. I think if it were that black and white it would make things easier.
It's ironic that while I'm typing, the only thing I can think of is "what's the purpose of this blog?"
1 comments:
Your blog also made me think, why do we blog? Why do we tell the entire world what we feel?
But then, I perceive blog as a space where I can air my views and get comments from people who manage to read it. It is like a discussion board where you post your thoughts and try and get them verified from your readers.
A blog the way I see it, is similar to way people in the bi-gone days used to write articles in various news papers and magazines to reach out to the masses with their ideas and thoughts.
Here we can reach out to the entire world's online population, whereas via the press, we can reach out to a city or a state or a country but not the entire world in one go.
My two cents!
Cheers
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